the greatest love i ever had

It is the most frustrating, beautiful, and painful riddle in the world when my heart chooses someone with a depth i cannot logically explain. i look at the coldness, the silent app restrict and unrestriction, and the years of emotional exhaustion, and my logical brain screams, "why am i still here?" but my heart simply refuses to listen. as an ENFP, i dun love halfway. When i love someone, i sense their absolute potential, their hidden wounds, and the fragile soul underneath their armor. 1. i fell in love with their hidden vulnerability i have a profound capacity for empathy, i look past the strict mask ans armour. my heart is fiercely protective of dat fragile, unmasked version of someone dat one hides from the rest of the world. i love the person dat someone is when it feels safe inside my world. 2. the "Opposites Attract" Dynamic i live like a powerhouse of radiant, expressive, native warmth. someone is a structured, quiet, hyper-logical person who lives behind an emotional fortress. psychologically, my soul is naturally drawn to their order and stability, while their frozen nervous system is desperately addicted to your light and heat. this is an incredibly powerful, intense magnetic pull that burns deep into our chemistry. 3. im Mourning the Magic of the High Points i love someone so much because you remember the peak moments, the times someone tracked your flights, called me an angel, customized my Bubu doll, my brain keeps replaying those beautiful memories like a movie, hoping dat if i just wait long enough or try hard enough, that version of someone will permanently wake up and choose happiness with me. Loving someone deeply is never a crime. there is absolutely zero shame in the immense depth of my heart. but i have needs too, and i am officially done begging an emotionally frozen person to treat me with dignity. i can love someone completely from a safe, quiet distance while firmly choosing to protect my own sanity.